To My Future Guy

It's probably late or probably too early for you to read this. You might just have woken up from a dreadful major exam yesterday or just gonna go to bed after 4 mugs of coffee because you're finishing your project. You're probably stressed out because of your unruly hair that can't be straighten out for your thesis defense or you can't sleep because you have a job interview tomorrow. Hell, you might be annoyed right now coz I want you to read this in front of me so that I can see every emotion that will pass across your face. Or maybe you might be rejecting that request of mine because it's too cheesy for you so I'm telling you right now that please don't because i'm gonna say something..

please be patient with me.

I know i'm irrational at times; I might be too frank and serious about all things; I might be mean and say awful things about your exes; I know i can be too sensitive about the music on the car or on the jeepney (i just said 'car' because i'm assuming you're a rich bastard, but hey i got it all figured out that we have to commute to experience life so just forget about it); i get annoyed when you don't use serving spoon/fork whenever we have dinner at y/our house; I get angry when you say you don't like harry potter because it makes you gay but let me tell you it would be life-changing to be in Hogwarts (oh, i know. i've been a gryffindor and a slytherin when i had some dreams about it); i also do stupid decisions and i keep on making you worried about me coz i gave up on texting frequently a long time ago so you have no idea where am i sometimes; I know i'm in love with jon snow and that's never gonna change and i hope you become the lord commander of the night's watch someday so i can get over him and not imagine him having my babies; I'm a bitch sometimes (okay, oftentimes); a blubbering mess whenever we watch a drama or a chick flick; a raging bull every time you cut your classes just to be with me (i'm not most girls babe. some girls might find this sweet, but hell no, not me); and a hypocrite for saying i'm not a hopeless romantic.

Look, all i'm saying is that i'm not gonna be a perfect girlfriend. I have a lot of flaws that i didn't even mentioned here because seriously, that is a long list. But hey, above all these flaws, i am something right. And that's being your girl.

I'm not gonna ask you for anything. I'm not actually a demanding person. All i want is for you to just be there as i am for you. I will hug you hard every time you need one and hug you harder when you don't; i will kill the cockroach that caused you to scream like a little girl in the living room; i will introduce you to all my favorite everything so that we will not argue that often about our favorite Beatles' song and our favorite young-and-hot-and-i-mean-super-hot-Brad Pitt film; i will kiss your mouth whenever you get so worked up with your lessons at school and whenever you tell me i'm beautiful even though i don't have slender arms or abs; i don't care if you have remains of pizza on your teeth coz i will still tell you that you make me feel like i'm 14 when you smile at me; i will forgive you even before you say sorry to me (but babe please, have the decency to really apologize. only if it is your fault, don't worry); and i will still love and adore and miss and hate and cherish and curse and love and love and love you even if you're a conceited, arrogant son of a bitch who has a beautiful smile that always makes my day brighter and loves me not more than his mom.

You don't need to give me the world. You don't need to fly me to the moon.

You don't need to move mountains for me.

Just be patient with me. And don't give up easily on me. And love me.

And believe in me when I say i'm gonna do the same.

My Playlist

Music has been, and will always be, an essential part of my life. If you know me personally, you will know that I won't get out of the house to go somewhere quite far and not bring my earphones. My earphones is actually my bae right now.

Normally, I am a huge Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Sam Smith and The 1975 fan. I mean, I love them so much so it's given that I listen to their music all the fucking time and I'm proud of it. But I have an eclectic taste in music. My jam ranges from oh-my-god-i-shouldnt-let-other-people-know-im-listening-to-this-kind-of-crap to ha-you-motherfuckers-yeah-i-have-an-amazing-taste-in-everything-unlike-you. So forgive me.

Here are some of the songs I frequently, and recently, listen to. This also includes some of the songs that I really love even from other eras. (note that these are just all from my phone, i still have a lot of faves other than these) Check them out!

A

A Beautiful Mess - Jason Mraz

A Step You Can't Take Back - Keira Knightley

Adia - Sarah McLachlan

All I Want - Kodaline

All Is Said and Done - Broadcast 2000

All My Love - Cameron Mitchell

All This Time - One Republic

Angel - Jack Johnson

Angels or Devils - Dishwalla

Anna Sun - Walk The Moon

As Much As I Ever Could - City & Colour

Asleep - The Smiths

Atlas Hands - Benjamin Francis Leftwich

B

Back and Forth - Operator Please

Back To You - Alex & Sierra

Beach Baby - Bon Iver

Beeswax - NazcarNation

Bermuda - Kisses

Better Than Penelope - Wendy Darling

Blackbird - The Beatles

Bones - Lewis Watson

Break My Fall - Golden Coast

Break The Cycle - You + Me

Brick - Ben Folds Five

Broken Stereo - Sean Fournier

Bulletproof Weeks - Matt Nathanson

C

Calendar Girl - Stars

California - Rogue Wave

Can't Take My Eyes Off You - Lady Antebellum

Captivated - Lady Gaga

Close Your Eyes - Young Love

Coffee and Cigarettes - Augustana

Come Around - Rosi Golan

Come Away With Me - Norah Jones

Cue The Sun! - Daphne Loves Derby

D

Deadwater - Wet

Delicate - Damien Rice

Don't Look Back In Anger - Oasis

Dream Girl - Hunter Hayes

Dusk and Summer - Dashboard Confessional

Dying Now - Noah Gundersen

E

Echo - Jason Walker

Embrace - Phillip Larue

Every Little Thing - Dishwalla

F

Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova

Fiona Coyne - Saint Pepsi

Fix You - Coldplay

***Flawless - Beyoncé feat. Chimamanda Ngozi Adiche

Forget Me - Dozens

Frame By Frame - The Honorary Title

Franklin - Paramore

G

Gotta Have You - The Weepies

Gravity - Sara Bareilles

Gravity Rides Everything - Modest Mouse

Guiding Light - Foy Vance

Gypsy - Suzanne Vega

H

Half Life - Duncan Shiek

Happy Accident - Jason Reeves

Hazelton - Justin Vernon

Hazy - Rosi Golan feat. William Fitzsimmons

Heart - Stars

Heart Like Yours - Willamette Stone

Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now - The Smiths

Higher (Oliver Nelson & Skogsrå remix) - Tobtok feat. Emil Heró

Ho Hey - The Lumineers

Home - Michael Bublé

How Lucky We Are - Meiko

I

I Fell In Love Once - Chase Coy

I Knew This Would Be Love - Imaginary Future

I Love You - Alex & Sierra

I Miss You Love - Silverchair

I Swear This Time I Mean It - Mayday Parade

I Think God Can Explain - Splender

I Wanna Be Yours - Arctic Monkeys

I Wanna Get Better (RAC Remix) - The Bleachers

I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab For Cutie

I Won't Let You Go - James Morrison

I Won't Love You Any Less - Nat & Alex Wolff

If You Ever Come Back - The Script

In Love Again - Colbie Caillat

In Repair - John Mayer

Infinite Jet - Happy Particles

Islands - Young The Giant

It's Over - Vertical Horizon

J

James Dean - Dale Earnhardt Jr. Jr.

James Dean & Audrey Hepburn - Sleeping With Sirens

Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum

K

King of Anything - Sara Bareilles

Kiss Me Slowly - Parachute

L

Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me - The Smiths

Last Night on Earth - Greenday

Learning To Breathe - Switchfoot

Let's Make This Moment A Crime - The Format

Like A Fool - Keira Knightley

Like We Used To - A Rocket To The Moon

Lonelily - Damien Rice

Look After You - The Fray

Lost Stars - Adam Levine

Love Alone - Caedmons Call

Love Gone Wrong - You + Me

Love's To Blame - Joel & Luke

Loveless Way - Belgian Fog

Loves Me Not - Kris Allen feat. Meiko

M

Madly - Tristan Prettyman

Make It Without You - Andrew Belle

Maybe I'm Just Tired - As Tall As Lions

Middle of Nowhere - Hot Hot Heat

Miracle - Vertical Horizon

Morning - Beck

My Heart - Paramore

N

Naive - The Kooks

Never Change - Chase Coy

Never Find Again - Jason Reeves

Never Say Never - The Fray

New Hampshire - Matt Pond PA

New Start To Start - Hark The Herons

No Fucking Around - Rafter

No Way Out - Rie Sinclair feat. Mike Suby

Noni's Field - Anathallo

Northern Wind - City & Colour

Not A Bad Thing - Justin Timberlake

Not Over You - Gavin DeGraw

O

Ocean Wide - The Afters

OctaHate - Ryn Weaver

P

Partition - Beyoncé

Phobic - Plumb

Playing God - Paramore

Poison and Wine - The Civil Wars

Promise - Ben Howard

Pumped Up Kicks - Foster The People

Q

Question - Old 97s

R

Rewind - Diane Birch

Ribs - Lorde

Ride - Cary Brothers

Right On Track - The Griswolds

Rocket - Beyoncé

S

Safe and Sound - Capital Cities

Samson - Regina Spektor

Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional

Seaside - The Kooks

Sherry Fraser - Marcy Playground

Show Me What I'm Looking For - Carolina Liar

Silver Lining - Rilo Kiley

Skinny Love - Bon Iver

Slow Dancing In a Burning Room - John Mayer

Slow Motion - Little Red

Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers

SO. GOOD. - Johnny Stimson

Somewhere Only We Know - Keane

Sooner Surrender - Matt Nathanson

Sophia - Nerina Pallot

Speechless - Lady Gaga

Stardust - Lena Meyer

Stay - Lisa Loeb

Still - Matt Nathanson

Stranded - Plumb

Sweater Weather - The Neighbourhood

T

Take Me Away - Lifehouse

Take Me To Church - Hozier

Taken - Plumb

Team - Lorde

The Love Club - Lorde

The One That Got Away - Katy Perry

There is A Light That Never Goes Out - The Smiths

Think of Laura - Christopher Cross

Thinking of You - Katy Perry

Today - Smashing Pumpkins

Try - Asher Book

U

Undercover Martyn - Two Door Cinema Club

Upside Down - Two Minds Crack

V

Volcanoes - Damien Rice

Vulnerable - Secondhand Seranade

W

Wake Up - Coheed & Cambria

We Are Broken - Paramore

We Are Not A Football Team - Minus The Bear

We Intertwined - The Hush Sound

What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

When She Cries - Restless Heart

When We Say Juicebox - AJ Rafael

White Blank Page - Mumford & Sons

Why - Avril Lavigne

Wild Motion (Set It Free) - Miami Horror

Without You - AJ Rafael

Without You - Charlie Wilson

X

XO - Beyoncé

Y

Yellow - Coldplay

You - The Pretty Reckless

You Could Be Happy - Snow Patrol

You Remind Me Of Home - Ben Gibbard

Young Hearts - Strange Talk

Your House - Alanis Morisette

Your Song - Elton John

Youth - Daughter

123

3 Rounds and A Sound - Blind Pilot

101 - WALLA

102 - Matty Healy // The 1975

400 Lux - Lorde

405 (acoustic) - Death Cab For Cutie

I also love some amazing covers:

Blank Space / Style mash-up cover (Taylor Swift) - Louisa Wendorff & Devin Dawson

I Can't Make You Love Me / Nick of Time mash-up cover (Billy Joel) - Justin Vernon // Bon Iver

Dreams cover (Fleetwood Mac) - Dana Williams & Leighton Meester

Landslide cover (Fleetwood Mac) - Glee (Gwyneth Paltrow, Naya Rivera & Heather Morris)

There are too many songs in such a tiny space. And there are too many songs this world have and I'm not even close to tell you all of my favorites. But there ya go! Enjoy!